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[12 Oct 2004|08:41am] |
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"How Come"- D12 |
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Hmmm..... i don't even know what to say! Like i promised myself when i got out of juvey that i would not be bad anymore... i would not be involved in bad shit like drugs and drinking but unfortunetly im back at it. i feel like im letting myself down. which i know i am kinda sortof. But when im around my friends and having a great time i just don't think. i'm tired of getting in trouble but that is just who i am. im tired of feeling like shit and my rents not trusting me. it's the worst feeling in the world. And the whole FUCKING guy thing.... that just pisses me off. recently i just got out of a long ass relatioship with a guy i loved so much but he used to abuse me when i got druck and he used to take advantage of me but i didn't care i didnt listen to the people who actually cared the most about me : my friends. i ran away with this kid... i was engaged to him i FUCKING wanted to marry him so bad and i wanted to have a family. but of course my rents didnt aprove. so that is why i ran away. but when i found out taht i was pregnant and i told him he got mad and told me that it wasnt his. so i finally realized that maybe i dont wanna be with him. he wasnt good to me. but now its like i need someone to feel loved and its hard. i feel like no one loves me . hmmmm i dont know. FUCK THIS AND FUCK THE WORLD!
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| This is Sarah |
[08 Oct 2004|01:24am] |
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Hola peeps this is Sarah [Skittles] on Nikki's lj just to say...THIS IS THE SWEET MAKINGS OF ME! COPYWRITE ME!
Lol jk..i just wanted to update because she didn't have any updates and yeah..lol
watch her not update EVER. Oh well i'm obsessed with making ljs so it won't all be at loss..
XoXo
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